Meet Amor
My story
Although I have always thought I was quite healthy, my definition of health has changed over the years as I understood the areas in my life that needed healing.
It all began when I fell in love
As women, we crave meaningful, deep relationships with another human being; someone who understands us and makes us feel loved. At least I did. But after a couple of years, my relationship wasn't working the way I wanted. I was trying to make a living, working jobs in which I didn't feel appreciated and that were not meaningful to me.
One morning, I woke up with a cramp on the right side of my neck. I started having neck and shoulder pain, and headaches became my new normal.
For about a year, I continued living my life without much change, working here and there. I didn't do much except going to the GP and seeing somebody privately who manipulated my neck and back for a while but the pain didn't go away. I just wanted to stop the pain but I had no idea how to do that. I began to lose joy for life. I was in a bad mood, in constant pain and nobody could tell me what was wrong.
I realized that my life resembled my mother's life too much for comfort. She had always had back pain. I knew if I didn't do something this was only the beginning of a life I didn't want.
When you don't move, life will move you
Life came to my rescue and moved me to a different place. Things didn't improve straightaway. In fact, they got worse for a while. I started to have panic attacks.
I really wanted to change. I stopped working. We bought a house and started doing it up. It was a time characterised by shopping for organic food in the local farmers market, visits to the local bookshop on the weekends for books and cappuccino ( I literally spent hours in the self-help section). I started to listen to Louise hay's tapes on my walks along the Irish countryside in an attempt to change my negative thinking, filtering the water, juicing, changing to organic personal care and cleaning house products and getting rid of plastic in the kitchen. I started to meditate for long periods with the help of my neighbour’s cat, which got really fond of me.
I visited a chiropractor for a year but I was never happy with the nerve-wrecking twisting of my neck the visits would usually end with. After that, I found a physiotherapist who gave me some answers and I started improving.
I also went back to college and completed a Master’s Degree in Translation.
Have you had enough pain?
During this time, my relationship got to breaking point. There was a moment in which I said: "I’m not taking this anymore. I don’t care if it’s my fault, I don’t care if I’m wrong."
Cut to 6 years and a cocktail of counselling, yoga, pilates and Taichi saw us slowly healing and along with that, relief from my back and neck pain. Counselling helped me in understanding my conditioning, dealing with my feelings and communicating with my partner. I was committed to work in my relationship not only for ourselves and each other but to be better parents and go beyond our conditioning.
I just wanted to be healthy. I wanted to be able to enjoy my life. I wanted to have a good loving relationship. I wanted to be a mother but I didn’t want to have a child the way things were.
I then started to live following my intuition
In my path to healing I met April, a medical intuitive and clinical nutritionist who introduced me to her system of energy management. I didn’t know it then but my life would never be the same again. She taught me a way of communicating with my body and developing my intuition. I started to learn how to live intuitively. I started to have less and less pain in my back. April said it was like peeling the layers of an onion.
In 2011 I decided to get pregnant. I had always known I had to face my fear of childbirth. All those years previously, I had been researching and reading books about pregnancy. Based on that, I knew how I wanted to give birth: naturally, just the way nature intended.
I gave birth to a beautiful little girl, naturally.
Birthing and motherhood changed everything once again
Since her birth, I felt swamped by the things around me. I had to choose between cleaning the house and the baby. I started to find information about attachment parenting, breastfeeding, unschooling, permaculture, self-sufficiency, off the grid living and the tiny house movement.
I felt that in order to live in agreement with my values I had to live off the grid and be self-sufficient. That scared me. Leaving everything behind and starting fresh somewhere else.
I started blogging when she was 2+ because I decided I had to do something to get out of the rut I was in. I wanted to have an income, to take control of my life and live the way I wanted. I decided to look for my passions and my mission, what I am supposed to do and how I can contribute to the world.
Connecting the dots
2015 was my first year blogging. It was challenging and interesting in equal measure. Blogging has thrown my life out of balance, trying to squish time to write, to create graphics and to learn about blogging. At the same time, I have more meaning and passion in my life. I have learned more about vaccination, plastic, cancer and other stories, about how it all adds up to a life full of chemicals. In telling the stories, I’m just connecting the dots of my own life and what I have learned.
Take responsibility. Take control. Take action
Now, with all that has happened in my life, I understand a bit better that in order to be healthy and enjoy life I need to return to Nature. I have a view of how our society has disempowered us to levels we don't even realise, how we have lost our connection with Nature and the understanding of how our bodies really work. We are natural beings. We are energy.
In order to be truly free, we must take control of every aspect of our lives and become responsible for our health, our birthing, our education, our parenting, our food, our energy sources and our work.
When we don't take responsibility for our own lives, we give our power away
It's time to take action
Step into your power
To You:
You have the power to change your life. Change starts within. Change starts with each one of us.
Ask within. Your world is a reflection of what you carry inside. The world is your reflection.
WAKE UP!
When you start making changes in your life you realize you can make other bigger changes. You are here for a reason. Your life matters. You are unique by design. You are a unique occurrence in a wonderful universe that will never be repeated again. Embrace your uniqueness.
There is another way, a way to live in harmony with Nature, not just with the planet but harmony in our own bodies. Harmony starts within. This way is a return to Nature, to understand that we are natural beings and and that the best way for us to live is in harmony with the Earth, a return to using and developing our intuition, which is our inner guidance to keep us safe and well.
The most empowering thing you can do is to start listening to your body. Your life is telling you what you need to know. Your body is telling you. You are wise beyond measure. You just don’t know it yet.
I believe that
1. We are powerful, natural beings.
2. We are one.
3. We are connected to an infinite field of pure potential.
4. The world is our mirror. The world mirrors back to us what is really going on inside of us.
5. Your thoughts create your reality. Change your thoughts and your reality changes.
6. Life is change. There is something you can do to change. Change starts within. Change starts with each one of us.
7. Practice self love by feeling good as much as possible.
8. Be curious. Ask empowering questions.
9. Trust your intuition. My intuition is my inner guidance, my compass.
10. We are here for a reason.
11. Relationships are nature's way to show us what needs healing.
12. Life is constant learning. When we learn we grow. When you stop learning you start dying.
13. We need to cultivate our aliveness.
14. We need to work together in harmony.
10 things about me
When I was a child:
- I wanted to be a mother to a baby girl.
- I wanted to be an artist but I thought I was born in the wrong family.
- I had a big, roaring laugh that you would hear at the end of the room.
- I loved the sea, floating on the water, watching the clouds go by.
- Summer was my favourite season.
- I liked crunching leaves with my feet in the autumn.
- I loved reading books and I would pride myself in reading big chunky books, then writing the date I finished reading them.
- I used to love dancing in the supermarket when the music was on, my “movie moment.”
- I always wanted to live to be 100+.
I still do.
It's a new day, it's a new dawn and I'm feeling good
Imagine waking up in the morning....
how would you like to feel?